20. Jersey. New York City girl stuck in the suburbs. Out of sight out of mind. I'd leave but I get homesick for ideas I had of what the word home used to mean. I've been missing half of who I am my whole life. I guess I've got good balance.

Every boy that's ever fallen in love with me or called me beautiful has never really seen my insides turned out. You like me silent and spiteful. I'm sorry I couldn't lie to you. Four letter words ruin everything.

sarcasm, being self depreciating, lip-gloss, biting my lip, summer showers, sushi, palahniuk

!!!, new order, joy division, the weakerthans, umbrellas, the magnetic fields, nada surf, kanye, panic! at the disco, say anything

the chipmunk adventure, dead poets society, the royal tenenbaums, teenage mutant ninja turtles, empire records, breakfast at tiffany's, the adventures of sebastian cole, rushmore

the o.c., teen titans, samurai champloo, family guy, america's next top model, where in the world is carmen sandiego?

a heartbreaking work of staggering genius, the bell jar, franny and zooey, the hanged man, cats cradle, the little yellow dog, invisible monsters, lullaby